Had Bad trip on weed (purp)?

i smoked purp last night for the first time. I havnt smoked in like 4 years which was my first time. I had a horrbile trip the very first time i smoked. I tolld myself I would never smoke again becuz i knew i never wanted to feel that feeling of having NO CONTROL of ur mind. and ur thoughts are jus all ova the place. ike a major dream and you cant get out of it. Well last night i was smokin i thought this time it was jus goin to be and laugh witmy best friend. After i hit the blunt like 7 times HARD. I began to think man i hope this night isnt like the one i had the first time i smoked...I began to laugh and my friends laughed for no reason..we jus began to laugh...then BAMMM!!! i stopped. I was like what happened in my head O **** NOT Again,,,then it started my mind started racing...Hearing things and jus wrong thoughts came in my head. I tried so hard to think of the positive but it was jus like i had a demon in me..and o yea..WE were listenin to some crazy killing type music,.(project pat) I think thats what triggered the carzii thought and result in a start of a horrible trip...This is my second time i smoked high grade..PLEASE DO NOT SMOKE HIGH GRADE WEED UNLESS U ARE EXPERIENCED....I eventually got home from chillin ova from my friends house..I went to my room and layed down..I began ofthinking of all type of crazy ****...I wanted to call my gf and talk to her but i knew my mind was not in the right state of mind...I was trippn bout everything..sucidal thoughts and killing people. Very bad yea i kno..luckily iim awake today. I prayed though to god ad told myself its jus the drug ill be ok. I still feel it a lil today and its like it wont go away but i kno it will...i ate i think that helped a lil. but the first time i smoked i swear it lasted for like 5 days i hated it....I jus wanted to let all the first time smokers(If u feel u want to try-recommend u not even **** wit dis **** in the first place but) do not smoke unless u research a drug and you know how to handle it...bad ttrips can lead to many bad things guys seriously not funny having no control of your mind and you feel like u can do anything and ull jus wake up from a dream not TRUE.